[IC] A boy and his gay great-great grandfather

[goddamnemperor]

[ in an empty cabin, the god emperor meditates ]

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[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

But you are lonely. The fact is finally sinking in, isn't it? The fact that people run from you. Here you are, God of the universe, Ruler of the Imperium, and you sit here in an empty house!

[goddamnemperor]

...

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

No one ever loved you enough. Except for that twin of yours, but she'll die in the span of your heart. And then where will you be?

[goddamnemperor]

... What is it you are trying to attempt? Truthsaying does not work on me. I chose my path willingly.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

What I want is what I offered your aunt. A little peace for yourself, but a moment of your delectable body.

[goddamnemperor]

[laughs]

So you can corner and trick some naive boy-child? Do you think me so stupid?

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Oh, but it's such a nice offer. Think about it. A moment of peace, of nothingness. And you will never have the nothingness of death, will you?

[goddamnemperor]

The consequences would be great. Possession, even with my permission, is still possession.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Consequences? Pah! What consequences ever hold in a place like this? What matters where I dilly-dally.

[goddamnemperor]

It matters to me.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

No, it does not. In fact, it pleases you to know that you bring them, that you still have might on your back. Even your little "friends" don't mean anything to you. You hinge nothing on them, you share nothing with them. What "consequence" could I bear?

[goddamnemperor]

... I still have in me the ability to invest in people. Or I would not be so sad. I would not... want my death in every passing moment.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Well, it'll shake things up a bit. And like silly naive things, they'll run back to you, asking you, caring about you.

[goddamnemperor]

No. If I take such a deal, I am no longer Leto. You cannot tempt me into this.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Damnit, boy! Is this what you want? We all know your weakness! We know what you are! And when you falter, we will destroy you!

[goddamnemperor]

Then do try to catch up to my faltering steps, if you can.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

[his voices fades away...]

I will have you, boy! Just you wait, it will happen soon...

[goddamnemperor]

[takes a deep breath and opens his eyes]

Ah... another timeline closes. What a pity.

[goddamnemperor]

[then closes his eyes once more]

I will not fear, fear is the mind-killer, I will face my fear, I will let it pass through me...

[goddamnemperor]

... Father, give me strength.