[IC] A boy and his gay great-great grandfather

[goddamnemperor]

[ in an empty cabin, the god emperor meditates ]

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[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

You think so loudly, my dear boy.

[goddamnemperor]

[without opening his eyes]

Thoughts must be heard.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes, there's no denying that. Many an order goes astray due to incompetence and lack of clarification.

[goddamnemperor]

Are my thoughts bothering you, Baron? Should I tighten the space in my head for you?

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

No need to be so hasty, my darling. Your cruelty is showing.

[goddamnemperor]

You dare to call me cruel? You, who ate my aunt out from the inside, preying on her weaknesses and her fears?

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Yes, my boy. Because you are cruel. Children are the cruellest beings in the universe, did you know? And your aunt did me a disservice. She killed me. And don't we follow the rules of kanly?

[goddamnemperor]

I will brook no excuses from you. Go away. You are irritating me.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

But you are not irritated, darling. No.... there is a deeper emotion at work. Is it your loneliness and sadness spreading?

[goddamnemperor]

Loneliness? Sadness? How naive. As if I can be so easily defined.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

But you are lonely. The fact is finally sinking in, isn't it? The fact that people run from you. Here you are, God of the universe, Ruler of the Imperium, and you sit here in an empty house!

[goddamnemperor]

...

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

No one ever loved you enough. Except for that twin of yours, but she'll die in the span of your heart. And then where will you be?

[goddamnemperor]

... What is it you are trying to attempt? Truthsaying does not work on me. I chose my path willingly.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

What I want is what I offered your aunt. A little peace for yourself, but a moment of your delectable body.

[goddamnemperor]

[laughs]

So you can corner and trick some naive boy-child? Do you think me so stupid?

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Oh, but it's such a nice offer. Think about it. A moment of peace, of nothingness. And you will never have the nothingness of death, will you?

[goddamnemperor]

The consequences would be great. Possession, even with my permission, is still possession.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Consequences? Pah! What consequences ever hold in a place like this? What matters where I dilly-dally.

[goddamnemperor]

It matters to me.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

No, it does not. In fact, it pleases you to know that you bring them, that you still have might on your back. Even your little "friends" don't mean anything to you. You hinge nothing on them, you share nothing with them. What "consequence" could I bear?

[goddamnemperor]

... I still have in me the ability to invest in people. Or I would not be so sad. I would not... want my death in every passing moment.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Well, it'll shake things up a bit. And like silly naive things, they'll run back to you, asking you, caring about you.

[goddamnemperor]

No. If I take such a deal, I am no longer Leto. You cannot tempt me into this.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

Damnit, boy! Is this what you want? We all know your weakness! We know what you are! And when you falter, we will destroy you!

[goddamnemperor]

Then do try to catch up to my faltering steps, if you can.

[ownvoice.livejournal.com]

[his voices fades away...]

I will have you, boy! Just you wait, it will happen soon...

[goddamnemperor]

[takes a deep breath and opens his eyes]

Ah... another timeline closes. What a pity.

[goddamnemperor]

[then closes his eyes once more]

I will not fear, fear is the mind-killer, I will face my fear, I will let it pass through me...

[goddamnemperor]

... Father, give me strength.